I did not leave the apartment today. The children and I stayed home because we were behind on laundry and organizing and because leaving was not an option for Mommy.
It is not an unusual occurrence. We spent a good bulk of the day at my parents’ home on Sunday and then I did a lot of errands with all of the kids yesterday.
Two days out and about is my typical limit with the outdoor world.
I was supposed to start physical therapy today and I postponed it again.
The new med for the ADHD side of me has been great, but it hasn’t done anything with this little wave of depression that has been flowing over me for the last week. It doesn’t take a stand at the typical agoraphobia that is part of the usual undercurrents.
The idea of leaving home today brings on a huge wall of fear. It isn’t the same as a panic attack but more like a complete shut-down.
If I was somehow forced to go out by myself it would take at least a week to recover, but I am lucky that no one is making me leave.
So I can take my downtime as I do workbooks with the kids and play with the blog and by tomorrow I will be fine again.
Tomorrow I will take the children to Publix and maybe the next day to do something big like bowling or laser tag.
But not today though. Today is a day to stay home.