I am back at work on the blog. I appreciated my little vacation after blogging every day of October. That actually worked out to be my October focus instead of the intended Spirituality.
I did start off October with a new, but separate blog focused on my spiritual path and worries and wonders at Spirituality TBD. Two posts in particular I am proud of: Belief in Magick Part 1 (why I don’t believe) and Belief in Magick Part 2 (why I do believe). Part 2 is especially close to my heart because I really allowed myself to be vulnerable. It is a little long, but there is part of my story from when I ran away at 17 and a Tarot card reading that pushed me into the spotlight. I have to be honest though and admit that I did not write Part 2 until today. So, it wasn’t part of the official October Happiness Project.
My Happiness Project focus for the month of November is supposed to be about the Words. I am supposed to be participating in NaNoWriMo… a national competition to write 50,000 words in 30 days. So far I have, sadly, a little over 2,000. I have this wonderful plot for a book that I am very excited to write about … a sci/fi – paranormal romance, but I kept getting in my own way. I have this little voice inside that says that I am supposed to be writing about my life. Mostly because, like this blog, I write in part to remind others that they aren’t alone. So I switched mid-stream to a piece where I had more liberty to borrow from my past. It is still harder than what I thought it would be.
Once fear sits in the driver’s seat of my mind, I tend to get scattered and grab at everything else. I picked up Photoshop Elements 10 so I could learn that. First I had to celebrate Digital Scrapbooking Day by picking up a bunch a blog freebies. Then I wandered into Pinterest and got lost there for a few days. Good news is that I actually saw a project, ran out and got the materials and finished it! I’ll be posting about that soon. My youngest son was ill for around 9 days straight so that took up a bit of time caring for him and it was hard to find my muse with little sleep. Yesterday I realized with all of this downloading and exploring Teachers Pay Teachers freebies, that my download folder has become quite cluttered so I began to organize that.
My mind is aching for adult conversation outside of “What is his fever today?”, “What’s for dinner tonight?” and “When are you going to clean up these piles?”.
I want everything. I want to learn everything. I want to be the best writer I can be. I want to be a decent digital artist. I want to have a beautiful art journal. I want to do all these crafty projects with the kids. I want all my photos to be in these fantastic albums that will become family treasures. I want it all now. Yes. Now. Really.
xoxo ~ Melissa