I committed to writing on this blog every single day for the month of October. My site went down October 23 and today it is finally alive again. I missed out on writing 3 posts. Does my experiment still count? I could have handwritten some posts and backdated them to fill in the gaps, but the question begged to be asked — Does it still count? Is it enough?
As I try to bolster up the courage to participate in NaNoWriMo, I wonder if I will be able to accept it if I don’t complete the 50,000 word count. Will it still count that I tried?
As parents, we constantly ask ourselves will what we’ve done for our children be enough for them to thrive in what this world will become? Have I done enough to instill what I perceive to be the right values and strength of character as the world becomes more grey and more complicated?
Artists and writers constantly question themselves – is this my best? Have I done enough to make this a piece that will count?
The trick is remembering that your true voice is the only one that matters. You will be judged by everyone else: your parents, your children, your spouse, your friends. You will have your inner critic that loves to sabotage your sense of self. It is nice to have their input, but in the end you are the only one that can answer those questions honestly.
You will know if it counts for you. You will know if what you have done is enough.
I am going forward from here. I going to appreciate my forced writing break for what it was and feel good about what I have accomplished. I will pick it from here and finish out the month as intended.
xoxo ~ Melissa