:::sigh:::
Maybe you haven’t noticed, but I haven’t talked about my weight loss journey in a while.
That’s because…. I SUCK at losing weight.
In fact, since I started in the beginning of this year not only have I failed to lose pounds … I put a bunch more on.
Don’t ask how much. I’m not telling you this time. Maybe next week.
The thing is… I knew it. It was there and being obvious, but I kept ignoring it.
Until yesterday, when I received the most amazing Mother’s Day gift… my first Pandora bracelet!!! I’ve wanted one for so long. Isn’t it so pretty?
Three Murano Glass Charms for each of my three children.
My very sweet husband went to place the bracelet on my wrist and it hurt when he closed it. It was just too tight.
I’m too fat for my Mother’s Day present.
It is easy to see where I went wrong. I went back to drinking Coke every day from morning till night, rarely taking in any water. I ate whatever I wanted with abandon… chocolate covered banana for breakfast? Sure! A shake and some fries as an afternoon snack? Why not! I basically said, “Screw You” to my body and acted like a petulant child.
I’m going to fix it. I don’t know how. I don’t have a plan this time and since it obviously didn’t work the last time… maybe I just need to trust my gut.
Today, I’m drinking water. I know this much… soda is the devil and will kill me if I don’t stop drinking it. I will blow up like that blueberry girl in the original Willy Wonka movie.
Today, I’m moving more. As I do laundry and housework, the radio is playing and I’m moving along to the music.
Being fat sucks. Not fitting into a bracelet is humiliating. Bumping into everything as I walk by is completely embarrassing. This must stop.
I deserve to be healthy. I deserve to feel good about myself. I deserve to live a full life with energy.
And I deserve to wear my damn Pandora bracelet.
They do carry larger sizes, so I'll get one that fits this week. 
xoxo ~ Melissa
